-This pregnancy has flown by, and for that I am grateful! However, it's also really weird knowing that your life is about to change in huuuuge ways, but the "when" part is totally unknown. This could be my last full week of work, or I may not even make it there tomorrow morning (very unlikely). There's just no way to know and that's difficult to wrap my mind around!
|Custom crib bedding from Etsy arrived this week!|
It's not the fanciest, but I love it!
-So speaking of scheduling... Maybe I'm weird but I really want this birthing experience to be sacred between Alex and I. I don't want family or friends to be hanging around the hospital or even there to meet baby immediately. I don't want to feel rushed to progress any faster than my body and baby are ready, and I want to cherish those initial moments with our little family and no one else. My mom has pressured me to let her in the delivery (to which I responded with a big fat NO), and while I think she has finally accepted my decision, everyone still expects to be notified as soon as I see the first signs of labor. I have no interest in alerting the masses and would really rather just tell people after it's all said and done. Everyone (except Alex) is making me feel guilty about it but I feel super strongly about this...am I awful for feeling this way?
|Jan. 28 - 36w6d|
-And if I hope for my body to bring things on naturally, then I'm open for (pleasant) suggestions on making that happen. I keep saying I'm going to walk this thing out of me if I have to! :) Doc says I made progress in one week that takes some several, so that's promising. So walking and raspberry leaf tea (which, I know is only going to strengthen uterus and not actually bring on labor) are my mantras right now. Yesterday, we walked 3 miles (of hills, thank you very much!) at a local park and let C.J. run around at the dog park while we were there. I was totally worn out afterwards, but no pain, no gain, they say!
|I am IN LOVE with this onsie...even if baby comes after Feb. 9.|
Mmm...okay, I think that's enough for now. There are probably several other "issues" running through my mind but I think I've unloaded enough for now. Here's to hoping for a productive and peaceful week, on all accounts!
P.S. I know for some this type of post can be uncomfortable, difficult, or just plain painful. Please know that we recognize this and pray for those of you who may struggle with infertility (any variation thereof) and/or infant loss. Our hearts go out to families affected by these struggles each and every day.